I am still here. This is not a simple statement. I will celebrate two years in October of working the Gupta Program. Sometimes I start to notice smells and I get discouraged thinking that I have not made much progress. Nothing could be farther from the truth. I was reading a success story which Ashok circulated the other day. I was reminded of all the things I did for almost twenty years to accommodate my MCS. I have to remind myself how far I have come. Smells are really just irritations. I still do the seven step process and the irritation disappears.
Two years ago I was actually considering lining my living space with foil. I was spending most of my time in my car. I was using public facilities according to the safety of their bathrooms.
I went shopping today. I walked into a department store right through the perfume section. I thought about the perfume, but I knew that it would not hurt me. Yes, it was strong, I still don’t care for perfume. But the big difference is that I knew that it would not hurt me. The amygdala cycle did not kick into high gear and start running like a hamster wheel.
Yes, I am oh so grateful.
Being tired is the place where I believe that MCS and Chronic Fatigue recovery intersect. Ashok Gupta talks about the Amygdala Retraining Programme as being one which deals with getting rid of negative thoughts. I have discovered that negative thoughts really do impact our energy levels.
Just recently I was becoming very tired in the late afternoons. My diet had not changed and I was sleeping very well at night. I couldn’t quite figure it out and grew concerned. Then I started paying more attention to my thought process. I realized that I was not being very diligent with identifying negative thoughts. It was a time with some added stress as well and the negative thoughts were just piling up as the day went along. I started back with my commitment to the program, with more regular meditation, and just more closely monitoring my thoughts. Now I am not having those slumps anymore. I had Chronic Fatigue several years ago and I know what that level of fatigue feels like. That level of fatigue is more than a slump.
So I chose the Amygdala Retraining Program by Ashok Gupta. I started the program on October 15, 2014. I am 100% better most days. There is some maintenance to be done. It appears that this blog is turning into one that will describe my healing process the best I can. Before I start out I want to be sure to state that this is just my experience. There are still thousands who suffer from MCS. I do want to remember them. I do not want to be ignorant of the fact that not all people may be able to heal. Healing is always up to the individual and we are all different. I really mean that.
So, in the next few posts, I will attempt to explain my process. I will not talk specifics about the Gupta Program, but more about the effects it has had on me and the causes of my own particular brand of MCS as I have experienced it.