So far so good


I passed the two year mark in October of starting the Gupta Progamme.  It has been quite a journey.  I am not one hundred percent and I don’t know if I will every consider myself to have reached that milestone.  It is interesting that as humans we have trouble going for the “thriving” part of life.  We too often settle for just getting by or for getting well enough.  And perhaps, that is just okay at times.  It all depends on the sum total of our life experiences I suppose.  If we have been through a lot of challenges then good enough is a very fine destination indeed.  It really is all relative, isn’t it?

I pretty much go where I want when I want without much attention to exposures.  There was one episode during the holidays at our local hardware store.  The store has been sold this year and they have made some changes.  The gift section is pretty much full of scented candles, air fresheners, and lotions, etc.  The air fresheners are those type with the sticks coming out of a bottle.  They had every variety open on display with the sticks in the bottles of liquid air freshener.  I was truly shocked. It was one of those instances where, even though I am better, I can still hold the belief that this is a very dangerous thing to do in the long run.  There is always balance to be had, but this was way over the top.

I firmly believe that as a recovering survivor of MCS, I still can hold certain beliefs about the health of our indoor, in particular, environments.  I very seldom have the capacity to change anything other than my own home environement (and sometimes not even that) but I can have opinions.  Now the trick is to not let those opinions slide over into fear of a particular environment.  I have to say that I was quite proud of myself at the hardware store.  Even with all of that fragrance, I knew that I would not have a reaction because of my work with the Gupta Programme.

So I continue in deep gratitude to Ashok and the Programme.  What a way to start a new year!

Happy New Year!


On the journey


The journey of healing is never linear.  I could start at the beginning and attempt to relate the events as they happened but it would force a linear template onto what is more of a spiral event.  I think the best approach would be to address the subject by topic or particular reactions or lack thereof.

For example, I go about my day and sometimes I don’t think of where I am going or what I am going to do.  You have to understand that before last fall, every action of my life was measured against whether or not I was going to have an exposure.  I hardly ever think anymore about going into a public bathroom and being exposed to air freshener.  I still would rather that the spray type air fresheners not be used, but I don’t even think about it most days.

I will not try to tell the story in a straight line, but focus on how my life is different.  To borrow from the 12 step program:

What your life was like.

How you got here.

and What your life is like now.

Here I am again


So I chose the Amygdala Retraining Program by Ashok Gupta.  I started the program on October 15, 2014.  I am 100% better most days.  There is some maintenance to be done.  It appears that this blog is turning into one that will describe my healing process the best I can.  Before I start out I want to be sure to state that this is just my experience.  There are still thousands who suffer from MCS.  I do want to remember them.  I do not want to be ignorant of the fact that not all people may be able to heal.  Healing is always up to the individual and we are all different.  I really mean that.

So, in the next few posts, I will attempt to explain my process.  I will not talk specifics about the Gupta Program, but more about the effects it has had on me and the causes of my own particular brand of MCS as I have experienced it.

Stay tuned.